Skylar and Missy

 Here's the actual essay. be warned it's like 10 pages and the formatting came out kinda weird:
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so over the Thanksgiving weekend, We were at a sleepover with some friends and sadly Missy didn't get to openly front much b/c We didn't trust most of the strangers there to understand well enough what was going on. :(
but We got distracted anyway b/c someone left the TV on and Us and several of Our friends ended up binge-watching an entire season of "Dexter" (the 4th season, even though it was the first time We'd seen it, so We kinda jumped in in the middle).
aaaaand now We're pretty sure it's becoming one of my SpIns, if not both of Ours--if Missy gets those??? still not sure about that, but She likes the show a lot too. She's already come up with a very nuanced theory to explain the main character's gender : b/c Missy is insistent that everyone in everything We watch be trans girls so She can get some representation, She's decided that Dexter is a cassgender (term for gender-apathetic if I'm not mistaken) butch non-dysphoric non-transitioning trans girl who uses she or he pronouns. i mean, why not, right?
but now I'm concerned that Our brain is gonna do the same garbage it always does when I get a new media SpIn: make more headmates!!
b/c geez We've only had 46 in the past (okay some were fragments and idk how to count them) in this weird revolving-door system thing that I can't seem to control.
it's kinda stressing me out.
Missy thinks it's fine if We get more headmates, and She's trying to work to get me to be okay with Our brain doing whatever it does--She's even setting up things in headspace that She thinks Dexter might need if she gets here, namely a complicated teleport system so Dexter can get back and forth from here in headspace to...what the heck is it, headspace-Miami?? anyway, she'll need to travel back and forth a lot if the show is any indication of how busy she usually is. so Missy thinks this is just great and will be fun.
I'm over here yelling at my brain every time I think it might be trying to create even a fragment of Dexter and freaking out when I feel Us getting attached, which b/c the show is Our SpIn now, is always...
mostly I'm concerned about the social consequences--it's fortunate that We've started leaving Tumblr anyway b/c the syscourse would eat Us alive (or at least We'd have some stuff to answer for that I'm not prepared to deal with). now I guess I just have to overcome my own internalized stuff about how systems are "supposed" to work. easier said than done ofc, lmao. maybe We'll bring this up in therapy on Thursday??